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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 16:37:04 GMT

Happy Valentine's Day

Be My Valentine <3

the way your hand was interlocked with mine,
it just made me realize how incredible you are.

I`ve Always

Believed In You.

Every girl wants to feel like the person she is... is enough. Thank you for making me feel like that. You`ve seen all my moods..you know how I am. You laugh at all my stupid jokes & sympathize with all my problems, no matter how petty they may be. You let me be whoever I want to be. & you like me anyway. That really does mean the world to me.

All I Want for Valentine`s Day ;
is a [ sweet kiss ] & a never ending hug

DEFiNiTiON OF PERFECT;
[every moment i`m with you]

i love the way my heart skips
a beat every time we kiss

if ever there is a tomorrow when we're not
together, there is something you must always
remember. you are braver than you believe,
stronger than you seem, and smarter than
you think. but the most important thing is,
even if we`re apart, i`ll always be with you.
- Winnie The Pooh

he`s not the kind you date..
he`s the kind you marry.

forever isn't long enough for what we have

OH VALENTINE,
i want to feel your hips pressed up against mine

Your Mistakes

Are A Cycle,

You`ll Never Learn..

when it comes down to love,
you risk nothing or everything.
that`s just how it is.

what`s even worse than ignoring
my friends` warnings
is that i ignored my own warnings
to myself that this might happen.

I can`t handle being friends with you right now.
it`s not completely cause of what you did to us, to me.
but you`re a constant reminder to me of what I did to myself.
i chose to believe you, believe every word that came out of your mouth.
& i wouldn`t be sitting here with mascara staining my cheeks
if i didn`t believe you. so when it`s easier to blame you,
i know that i`m the one to blame for my own broken heart.

So now life doesn`t really matter
It`s all just crash & burn
People are so moral-less
& never seem to learn

They`re The Perfect

Couple. He Lies &

She Believes.

Ya know, it`s starting to hit me. Tomorrow I register for my last year of high school..I start the last year of my life as a child..& become a young adult who`s ready to begin the rest of her life. & to tell you the truth, it's a little scary. Sure it`s exciting, but it`s still scary to think that one of these days, I won`t have the comforts of high school..protecting me from the real world. These walls that have surrounded me for the last 12 years aren`t going to be there anymore..& I can`t help but wonder ;; am I ready for the change?

I feel so horrible for you. You did a terrible thing. You fell in love with me. I have so much sorrow for you, cause there`s something you don't know yet. Not to long from now you`ll realize I`m a mess ; not worth dealing with, & the pretty smiles were simply facial expressions & nothing more. You`ll realize I`m not who you thought I was, & you`ll wish you never fell for me.

I`m going to smile my best smile &
I`m going to laugh like it`s going out of style.
I look into his eyes, & I pray that he doesn`t see ;;
that learning to live again is killing me

I know how it feels to hear something funny & not laugh
& to have all the love in the world yet feel so alone
I know how it feels to have nowhere to go for comfort
& the people who should comfort you the most are the ones
who you can't see & be happy around at the same time;
how it feels to act so much that you can barely tell
where you begin & the fake you ends
to look in the mirror & not be able to fathom
how anyone could ever love you..
when you can`t love yourself.
I know how it feels.
I know what it`s like to have
nowhere to go to escape yourself,
but I can promise you one thing ::
running won`t make anything better.
you`ll only think it will..
but it won`t.
I`ve tried..

Sunday, December 31, 2006

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 18:43:25 GMT

and also number one why would you kick me in the vaginaOW! and number two why is my vagina so low?

Monday, October 09, 2006

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 22:02:25 GMT

So i'm thinking that it's time for a new layout, since I got one on MySpace last night.

I just went and looked at a bunch, and subscribed to ones I like so I could choose and pick from them in the future if I want to use them then instead. And I think you should give me some feedback. So here's the options (in no particular order)::
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So I think you should vote on which you think I should use. Those're links, by the way.

And by the way... today was amazing. I fucking love it there. I can't wait for college!

Of course she's going to say she's happy for you
and flash that famous smile.
But look into those blue eyes
and baby, you broke her.

Time flies. Time waits for no man.
Time heals all wounds.
All any of us wants is more time.
Time to stand up, time to grow up,
time to let go. Time.

We fall like shooting stars and autumn leaves,
staying up later than the streetlights,
promising what never could be.
I can't be anything without you.

I get false hopes that you love me,
and give false signs that I don't love you.

so kiss me babe.
with no intention of stopping.

the next time my name's about
to roll off your tongue, choke on it bitch.

you never think that the last
time is the last time. you never
think there won't be more.
you think you have forever
but you dont.
-- grey's anatomy

did you picture her face while looking at me?
tell me, how was i supposed to know
you'd let me down so hard.

Not today, not tomorrow,
but someday I will understand
that there won't be another chance

nothing of me is original.
i am the combined effort of everybody i've ever known.

it's hard to talk to ex boyfriends
because you have to face the
reality that he's not yours anymore

We used to be able to talk about everything,
but now it's impossible to even start a
decent conversation with you.
You can't deny it, things have changed.
We've grown apart, and you have to face
the fact that I will no longer be there every
single time you need me,
just like you're not there every
single time I need you.
The truth is what it is,
and that is I do not have anymore
respect for you as an individual now.
You are just another face in the crowd.

You didn't love the boy too much
you loved him too well,
and at our age some people
just don't know what to do with that.

&& there was a time when
i knew nothing of back seats & broken hearts

You're talking to the girl who has
laughed, sobbed, loved, cried,
smiled, yelled, screamed, sang,
and has made it through it all

sometimes you have to forget how you
feel and remember what you deserve.

Put your body against mine so I can feel your heart beat.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 17:34:09 GMT

Girl tonight you look so pretty...

Guess who gets to go to Ohio State tomorrow? Me me me!!! Can you tell i'm frickin pumped? I have to leave super early, which means getting up super early and getting ready then sleeping on the way down, but whatever. We have to be there at 8:30am.

Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

Plus I get to go to the Ohio State vs. Northwestern game on November 11. Yay yay yay! And I'm really hoping on winning tickets to the Michigan game too, that'd be frickin amazing and I would like die.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?

Umm basically I think that's all I wanted to say. Senior year is going quite amazing. Went to David's bonfire last night, and me and Erik were the only ones there the whole time. Steve && his girlfriend Michelle showed up for about 10 mins. But can you say a-w-k-ward with me && Erik? Oh my shit! super awkward ma'am.

I don't know how hard this wind will blow...

I need a job...

Partytillyourparentscomehome

Where did I go ~~wrong~~, I lost a friend
<3 Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night ;
Had I known how to save a life

What hurts the most ; was being so close
&& having so much to say + watching you walk away
&& never knowing , what could have been ______</3
&& not seeing that loving you is what I was tryin’ to do

Senior Pics!

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 02:20:23 GMT

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Monday, September 11, 2006

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 16:43:41 GMT

Today is a very important day. It's a tragic day. It's a meaningful day.
On the way to school this morning, I was listening to 98.1 and they were playing a tape of a phone call or news thing or something of right after the first tower was hit. And I'm just chillin on the way to Sarah's, listening to this, and it makes me beyond sad. And then all the sudden, you hear the huge crash of the second tower being hit. I almost burst into tears on the spot.
September 11th hasn't ever effected me this way until now. I've always been okay today, just reflected back and thought about things to remember the tragedy, and moved on with my day. I wasn't okay today, but I had to be, because no one else was having the problems I was having get through the day. Why was it so hard for me this year? Why is this year so different?

I can remember back to that day in 7th grade. Of course, when it actually happened, no one told us all. I was sitting in 2nd period study hall when the first tower was hit. Throughout the day, kids' parents were coming to pick them up, for no reason (or so we thought). And then I guess somehow, some kids found out what was going on. Maybe their teachers had the TV on in their class or something. But some kids knew and were telling others that the country was being attacked. We all thought we were done for. And then (just to show you how ridiculous children are these days) someone started saying that the next attack was gonna be in Cleveland. They knew nothing about what was going on, and started a rumor to freak the rest of us out. Who the fuck does that? I remember not finding anything out until 7th period Cooking. She finally let us turn on the TV, and we got to see them play over and over the planes hitting the towers, and then the towers collapsing. We really didn't think it was that big of a deal. We were, what, 12? Nothing was that big of a deal to us, we thought nothing could go that wrong in our little worlds.

Today is a day of reflection. Everyone should remember where they were, what they were doing, who they were with.
Eventually, when we have kids, and they have kids, we will be passing the story down our family. This day is already a part of History. I was surprised to find it in my American Government book already. These must be some damn new books. I didn't know something could make its way into history books so fast, but there is that picture of the firemen raising the flag.

Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season

So accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

But my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

So Seductive <3

There's about to be a GIRL.FIGHT! *

FOOTBALL GAMES = L.O.V.E.

Idon'tneedarunway

When a lie gets passed around enough,
it doesn't become the truth, but everybody believes it

I don't know who to trust

♥ ♥ Hateme ♥ ♥
soyoucanfinallysee
what'sgoodforyou

WEALWAYSHAVETOOMUCHFUN

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 01:46:13 GMT

Oh my hell, the new editor is faaaaancy! I like it.

is there a sign on my back
that says break my heart?

We're retarded ; but still best friends

BornAnOriginal

* Music ;; It's life.

Give It All You Got

Every Little Kiss

your kisses on my neck and your
hands on my thighs --» darling,
you've got me - hypnotized.

talk to her^©a

shes a girl

the reason she doesn't talk first

is because she has a vision of a boy

who will go out of his way for hera

By the way, we now call my car Ulla. It's from The Producers. Watch it, it's amazing.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 14:48:52 GMT

Last night was... monumentous.

I got my car.
My cute lil fabulous blue Saturn SL2. I loooove her, and i'm callin her "Lil Blue" for now.

And then... there was Scott.
We won't go into that. But I will say that I have not seen any more of The 40-Year-Old Virgin than I saw at Katie's. Possibly less. And MapQuest makes directions fuckin difficult. It's leadin me all over the place to get to his house, fuckin gettin me lost cause it's dark out so I can't see street names so I don't know where i'm goin. I gotta stop goin places for the first time at night. And I gotta stop usin MapQuest, it's fucking complicated.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 15:42:34 GMT

I'm getting a car!

It's a 2000 Saturn SL1 and it's blue. They're replacing the windshield and right mirror before we buy it.
Question:: How do you completely rip off one of your rearview mirrors? Whatever.
We looked it up on kbb.com and the suggested price is $6,045. We're getting it for $3,900. I love Dee! Yea he's the guy we always buy our cars from up at Ron Marhofer Chevrolet.

I'll take pics and put em on here once it's mine. I'm super pumped!

Plus at the show this weekend working for my grandma, I bought this amazing necklace. It's got 3 stargazers made of leather. That's right, flowers made of leather. Here's what stargazers look like, they're pretty::

((The white ones with pink coming out of the middle))

Yea, I love it. It's amazing and everyone i've showed it to loves it, too.
I also bought a pin from the same place so it's also made of leather and it's a snowman with an Ohio State hat on.
I also bought some fudge that I accidentally left there. Does fudge get stale?

I got my senior pics done last week. Here's the outfits I went with::

I didn't actually use the bandana or socks for the first outfit cause it ended up being my outside outfit. And i'm pretty sure in all those pics the clasp of my necklace is showing since the lady who was like the hair adjuster and stuff didn't come outside so I didn't know. So those ones might not be very good. But i'm really hoping they turned out good cause I don't take the best pics.

And now Scott wants to hang out again sometime before school starts. What is this gonna lead to?

I scheduled to retake the ACT today, it just has to be finished up and paid for. I need to sign up for the SAT too.
And Ruman wants his damn parking pass back. I guess he was looking at the wrong list before to check my tardies. I was wondering how Snowberger swung that for me, I knew she wasn't a miracle worker. Lame.

Well, i'm Peacin Out.

life ain't always beautiful,
but it's a beautiful ride.

we're not sarcastic; we're hilarious
we're not annoying; we're just cooler than you
we're not bitches; we just don't like you
we're not obsessed; we're just best friends

So You Had a Bad Day
you say you dont know. you tell me dont lie
you work at a smile and you go for a ride.
LLLKKKJJJ

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 15:18:55 GMT

So Friday night was amazing. I am quite possibly and probably the loudest drunk you'll ever meet. I'm very sorry Kimi. I really am.

My drunk food = Scooby Doo Tattoo Fruit Roll Ups. Damn fucking amazing.

Tomorrow i'm getting my Senior Pics taken, so today i'm doing a ton of laundry and trying to decide on my outfits and whatnot. And working out and laying out. I haven't the slightest idea of the 5 outfits I need. I have ideas, but I have to try shit on today to see if they still fit. You know how it goes. I'll take pics of my outfits later and put em on here. And then once I have my pics, put em on here somehow.

Can I just tell you that it is pointless for me to have my license except that my parents don't have to drive me to work. That's the only place they've let me drive. I haven't gotten to drive to my friends' houses and shit. It's fucking dumb. And I don't have my own car yet, even though I have to by the time school starts. When I point this out to Dad, he asks why and says I should ride the bus. Umm does the bus run 10th period? Don't think so Daddy-O. I went up and applied for a parking pass and everything, and lemme tell you that was a hassle. And I love Mrs. Snowberger for somehow making my tardies go away so I could get a parking pass. When he checked them, they were okay, and I was figuring I wouldn't be able to get one cause I was late to school like every day. I dunno but it's amazing.

And now.. I have to go. I have quotes and icons and such i'd love to put on here, but no time.